sometimes you just have to hit rock bottom to know that you're still alive
i have been shattered, glued the pieces back together and there is no chance in hell that i'll go back
to the same me which i was for 2-3 months ago
i'm growing up
slowly
and i'm okay with that, because i know i have to keep going in order to be a better self
than i was yesterday
and the day before that

all i want in life is happiness, my friends and family
i'm so sorry to those i've pushed away in order to get here where i am today
i'm sorry you're not a part of my life and happiness any longer
and i'm sorry that i'm not a part of your life anymore
i wish i was

i've realized that i've been dealing with my problems the wrong way
and today is the day that i'll find the right way again
i don't know where to start or where i will be in january or in august 2015
but that's okay
but the journey has begun
i may fuck up under the way but i'm only human