I've spent so many years in the dark and in so much recovery. The past three years has been a learning process. How to cope, how to move forward, how to stay on track and be happy and how not to lose hope just because you have a bad day.
2016 has been a very weird year, i've been angry, happy, puzzled, and everything in between.
It has been the year i've realised most shit and done most progress. But don't we all say that every year? I guess so, but that's a good thing. It reminds me that feelings change, you keep going and learning new shit about yourself and others. Life is weird, and you have to learn how to deal with it, and I don't really care much how other people learn how to cope, as long as they don't take their negative emotions out on everyone else.
And I'd like to make a bulletpoint list over the things I've learned and all that shit, because why the fuck not. This shit helps me be on track and make me remember all the good things that happens.

• Don't let a broken heart be your demise. You can move on. You're still the same person as before, and you are good enough. Don't let anyone tell you anything else, because people like to project their shitty feelings onto other people. That shit ain't okay. Remember to cry, talk shit if that's what you need, take time to recover from the break-up. Everyone moves on in different tempos, and nothing is wrong with you if it takes longer than expected. 
• It's just a bad day, not a bad life. Deal with your feelings today, not tomorrow. Sleep it off, cry (if needed), take your time, breath, try to remember the good things you've accomplished, listen to silly music, draw some shitty art piece and have a laugh about it, or do whatever that makes you happy. 
• Don't be afraid of change. You will not be a totally different person, just because you become happy and won't rely on your bad mood any longer. So fucking what if this band isn't your favorit band in five years? So what if you're happier? You'll be okay, and you'll be so grateful that you feel better and are on the right track.
• You'll friends, but you'll also get new ones who might be better friends than the old ones. Don't be sad or afraid of cutting ties if someone holds you back. 
• Remember to breath and smile. 
• Just because it takes longer to recover than others or you do things differently, it doesn't mean that your path isn't valid or that you're a lost cause. You do you, if something makes you happy, then fucking do it and keep doing it. If this thing makes you happy and makes you love life a little extra, keep doing it, because you're doing something correctly. It's all about learning the do's and dont's when it comes to recovery or whatever is holding you back in the given moment. Whatever works for you, might not work for everyone else.