i wanted everything in the world
i wanted to do whatever it took
if i could do anything to bring you back
you have been gone for 4 years now
it'll never get easier on these days

i swore i would honor your last wish
but how did that go?
look at me now
broken but
yet
i'm happier than i used to be

you fucked me up
but one thing i've learned
love
can happen in the darkest of days
but you cannot save people from themselves

i will never honor your last wish
till i figure life out
it haunts me so much
all the shit i've gone through
seems like i haven't learned shit
from you

my life is a giant fucking mess, and i miss you dearly.
and when i reach this mood, i'll be drowning in alcohol and thoughts about
drugs, but i try not to, i try not to.

i still love you, and i am so sorry for being such as fuck up.