I cannot believe I would have torn down my own life apart for you once. Where is the logic in that? 

haven't really been updating since forever since my macbook is now replaced by an oldschool windows laptop, haha.
but all i can be telling is that first school is over and one year left ! and i will be graduating and this chapter of my life will be over.
I suppose my life after graduation will be hectic. I have no idea what to do or what I want to become. But I will figure that out someday.
And my love life has been pretty ... non existent. But I will be updating about that in probably in month since there's this guy. Damn man.

i'm so tired of people constantly trying to tell me what to do.
'do this', 'do that' ... no... i want to make my own mistakes.
i want to learn on my own - back the fuck off.
this is my life, not yours.
leave me alone, i know what i'm doing.
i don't need your approval.

Don’t try to sleep through the end of the world
And bury me alive
'Cause I won’t give up without a fight

If you love me let me go
If you love me let me go
‘Cause these words are knives and often leave scars
The fear of falling apart
And truth be told, I never was yours
The fear, the fear of falling apart

We all try to be somebody

But the world around us makes it so cloudy

When we don't trust where we're supposed to

But the blood on the hands says we're not close to the answer, yeah

ahahaha this. so fucking true. 

As I lied there next to you
I realized how much I adore
your face
when you're sleeping
I liked the closeness
And the warmth of your body
and how you didn't mind
when I decided to lie my head
on your chest
and with my hand on your tummy

and now
when you're not next to me
i miss you
i miss your face
the warmth of your body
and cuddling close to you
just to feel safe
and less alone
i had to remind myself
that this moment
would never be relived
you were only mine for the night

you're mine to adore from distance
the worst part is
i can still feel your lips on mine.